A Still Small Voice

A poem by Samuel Wu

The service has already started when

God sits down, next to me. Well, well,

well, out of all the churches in the world…

He doesn’t find it funny. Doesn’t say

a word, just sits down and stares ahead.

That’s fine – two can play this game –

It’s not hard to stare at the man in the

loincloth on the wall. Pain, pleasure,

the difference is lost on those who endure it.

My mind sins and my impulses put

Eve’s to shame. The hunger in my eyes

never knows when to stop. I reach for fruit

beyond my grasp. God, I never asked why

you never stopped me from taking it, partly

to keep your hands clean. You welcome me

back, but you will smile no more. Oh, that

my evenings could once again be filled with

walks with the god that calls for my removal!

You know I believed you? Not in you,

– it really doesn’t matter who you are –

But I believed you

You said jump – the faithful asked how high

before saying no – but I jumped,

And my feet fell through the top of the water and

my soles were on fire, and even then, I jumped. I

jumped, and the hurricane took me up; rain abused

my face and tears became welcome, the eye watching,

never intervening. Cruelty is the eye watching, pain is

the silence that returns the disciples' plea.

I could write volumes on this moment of silence alone,

but you already have, and what does it mean for both of

us when you know I have no interest in reading it?

We always forget that the rainbow came after the flood

and was never meant to be beautiful, but to be the reminder

of a promise. That true love lays at the end, where the stone

wall becomes a well, a stop for the faithful weary. Children

take their wooden closets, now turned transparent, and proudly

call them the trophy case for love.

What do I do with all this faith? Do not tell me to try again, that

I almost had it right, because I could not love you in every

universe when I do not love you the way I should in this one.

If you care for this type of stuff, I can still find

solace in the hollowness of my faith,

I can still believe.

God, if you are listening, remind me to do my laundry.

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